Love and War

These thoughts keep pouring out Like water leaks through a hole at the bottom of a leaking ship, At sea.
Used to pray you'd feel them from where you were and come back to me.

You got lost in a flame that's been out since I cameAround.
Gave you love, support, and affection, but reciprocated acts, cannot be found.

Bewilderment... Took over me as I sat and listened to the hypocrisy that was you!
Seems as though you forgot...Baby, I am human too!

Maybe I am crazy! For misunderstanding, this... "Arrangement."
Though without intent, our actions showed & made it feel as though there was a possibility for your true engagement.

Wholesome days, Heart-felt nights- cause you knew when she was calling.
I heard him too, had you crippled in your state, cause you know she takes him ALL in!

Massages that never neglected an inch of your body, Gentle caresses that give you goosebumbs at night's end.
And even in stillness and darkness, Pillow talk. Not only to your lover, but your best friend.

Sucks for you... cause you know aint no way you can ever find someone to compare...

Even If you TRIED to deny our connection, that passion wont be found NO WHERE!!

Got brainwashed by some blood-sucking, hollow flesh, who's only intent is for the betterment of herself.
She's lucky, I’m a woman with faith, otherwise crossing me would be bad for her health.

It's the depth of my heart, and the passion of my soul that I gave.
Ready to be submissive, yet a soldier, ride or die til I met my grave.

That's neither here nor there, cause though the cut still stings, it's healing but leaving a scar.
Prime example, of why they say... "All is fair in Love and War."

I am...

a strong woman of color, who sometimes get weak.
I'm a intelligent individual who at times forgets how to speak.
I'm a lover, I'm a hater
I'm a friend, I'm a foe
I'm that chick who'll have you over n let your ass know when its time to go!

I'm outspoken, and Lord knows at times, a bit too much.
I'm a woman who though at times aggressive, melts with his touch.

I'm brave yet afraid
I'm popular yet alone.
Yes - At times I throw emotional tantrums but Motherfucker - I'm Grown!

I couldn't care less what you think of me, yet at times... I do.
As long as you accept my keeping it real, then I can rock with you.

I'm a woman of class that's down to earth, but I've spent some time in ya hood.
Love to sip on a glass of fine wine, But if need be, gimmie a glock and I'm GOOD.

I'm a woman who wants to find peace and happiness with a heart that's pure.
I'm a sucker for love searching for that undeniable connection with the one that I adore.

I'm overly sensitive, I'm too harsh

I'm a straight tomboy who's been taught to be soft...

I'm confident in myself, yet at times insecure.
I have faith in my success, yet at times I'm unsure...

I hate this cliche rhyming mess... But at times it just comes out...

Not caring right now cause its happening naturally so you're seeing what I'm about

I'm a woman of faith, with strong virtue and moral standings.

I trust in the Lord and I know that through him all things can happen.

I'm an intellectual who at times cant even articulate the simplest thought.

I'm a woman with friends AND FAMILY who've stabbed me in the back with the metaphoric knife I literally BOUGHT!

I'm a young girl's idol, I'm my mother's disappointment.

I'm a precious child of the universe who refuses to tolerate your torment.

I'm a brookly-knight who refused to take on the arrogance.

I'm that far rock chick that made it out the hood by chance.

I'm a Jamaican queen who deeply understands survival of the fittest.

I'm the lady all these men want, but unless you worship me - then hell no you cant have this!

I'm a Harlem school of the arts Alumni! Dancer, singer and composer.

I'm a pianist whose knowledge in music varies from classical to modern culture.

I'm a fatherless daughter who will always feel that void.

I'm a big sister who lacks patience, and gets easily annoyed.

I'm a mother to a child that wasnt born to me.

Yet I love and miss her so much that life without her, I def couldnt see.

I'm an independent woman who wants a family to call my own.
I'm a young creative executive who doesnt want to grow old alone.
I'm a woman who appreciates the earth and all mother nature has to offer.
I'm a woman aware that I have a natural power to heal by touch I'm a nurturer.
I'm a woman who's being watched with the critical eyes of sistas who cant stand to love themselves.
Eat your heart out bitches! I have a wealth of knowledge, drive, ambition, self respect, and the Lord as my saviour, and soon a few of my books on YOUR shelves!

I am woman... love is me...
BACK UP off me... I just need to be free...

Namiste...

Hi, Hey, and Hello to you all! Just wanted to start by saying thank you! I genuinely appreciate your stopping by... There are definitely an infinite amount of sites that you could be on at this moment, and you're interested enough in my thoughts to be right here... so again, THANK YOU!